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i may not be a lot of things, have never been really

but God's been reminding me over the past weeks that there are certain things i must grasp and you never let go of no matter what happens, because these things are in essence the very fabric of my character, it may not look like much, but without it everything just seems hollow, the way i interact with people just becomes an empty routine which doesnt have any of me in it at all smacked with a sense of apathy and cynicism that just reeks of superficiality because perhaps i had never really seen the value of who i was or what i did, that when circumstances turned against me, i turned my back away in disgust vowing i'd never allow myself to be hurt again.

and right now i think im clinging onto all of the wrong things and letting go of all the ones that i should be holding on to like beliefs and values which i was taught to ever since i was a kid. things like faith, hope, sincerity, truth, love and more importantly God Himself.

but i'll never let what little i had and held on to desperately in the past errode away, and im pretty sure God wont allow it too. =) what im turning into, it's ugly and i dont just mean the rashes and the pimples and the small eyes and the huge tummy =p