Saturday, October 09, 2004
oh man. i'm in a super horrible mood now i dont know why. what the heck am i doin. I'm damn confused now. Every thing can just screw off lah i wanna hide under my blanket and sleep. i feel miserable. I guess i'll just go to bed and wake up feeling ohkay.
That's if i can sleep in the first place.
niggling issues all adding up together.
I feel like shit.
I need to change a lot of things about myself.
Perhaps you'll see a new Shawn tomorrow.
A Shawn that shuts his big big mouth.
I cant believe i've been telling my close friends that i like girls whom i'm just attracted to. I only wannted to forget about erene. Sorry i'm selfish. It was my method of psychoing myself that i dont like her any more.
Oops. Not happening.
Why do i seek the best.
It's a vicious cycle.
what the hell is wrong with me.
Oh today i spoke perfect english for the first time in a long while. was walking to eman's house for cell when i met kim and started talking to her. I FELT WEIRD. i dont speak english like that in nyp. the comparison is just so vast. oh man. Got used to it after a while. then they were talking about o level subjects, results, entry into jc. jc life. nice nice. i'm but just a poly boy. I think i'm going to read a lot from now on and either maintain or improve on my english. Dont wanna sound like some idiot who's attempting to speak the language but cant.
I'm super confused.