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it's like 12 am now. haha which means it's 31st aug yay. neubroknights going back acs i to play socccer.. jus hope dat we run into some old frens or the cafe uncle has the ball. if not ah neh has to go acjc and kope one.. when he's like ponning school. muahahhaha.

Cant wait to see some of the teachers. Liang, Quek, j wong.. dalwinthress.. Mrs Li.. and Shau Ching. they rawk lah.. gonna feel a bit screwed up goin back as a poly student though. oh well..

Oh. Thanks for the wonderful birthday!! Ah neh's card for me rawkxor to the max. Luckily Josh wasnt there if not he wld have crushed it up :p Thanks Kim for the cookies!! they were yummie. and thanks for the wallet too. hahahahah. And thanks to the people who signed in my card. You all really made my day. =) Thanks to all that wished me too. And thanks to those that din wish me but i noe u all want me to have a happy birthday lah :p hahahha

Hmm... God's great as always. I've got a prayer partner!! :p Great to know that at least one person's going to pray for me. That serves to have some comfort when things are not going so rite. Things haven started going downhill yet. Thank God for that.

Eh ah neh i noe u wont be reading this but i gurantee ur birthday will be better den mine. :p

Wah eh i really miss us as a class.

Cant wait to go back and play on the I astroturf again lah.

I love our attitude.

Fine I love all of you.

... look what getting grounded does to you. You start thinking dum stuff again.

31st August. all go back.

Oh tmr play soccer :D

Yay. ohkay i go eat with mummy lim now.

Wait For me

Darling did you know that I
I dream about you
Waiting for the look in your eyes
When we meet for the first time
Darling did you know that I
I pray about you
Praying that you will hold on
Keep your loving eyes only for me


I am waiting for
Praying for you, darling
Wait for me, too
Wait for me as I wait for you
I am waiting for
Praying for you, darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me, as I wait for you
Darling, wait


Darling did you know I dream about life together
Knowing it will be forever
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And darling when I say
'Til death do us part
I'll mean it with all of my heart
Now and always, faithful to you


I am waiting for
Praying for you, darling
Wait for me, too
Wait for me as I wait for you
I am waiting for
Praying for you, darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me, as I wait for you
Darling, wait


Now I know you may have made mistakes
But there's forgiveness and a second chance
So wait for me darling
Wait for me
Wait for me

God speaks and He speaks clearly. Convicting me of my wrong and disciplining me. Now it's up to me to have that discipline which I lack most of the time to carry it out. So pray for me!! =)

Romans 12:16-18

Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, AS FAR AS IT DEPENDS ON YOU, live at peace with every one.

wow.

And then there's...

Romans 5:3-5

Not only so, but we rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us :D

ohkay i koped this from Char's blog but it spoke to me too.

Psalms 33:20-22

"We wait in hope for the Lord,
He is our help and our shield.
In Him our hearts rejoice,
For we trust in His holy name.
May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord,
Even as we put our hope in you."

there's nothing my God cannot do =)

YAY.

I'll obey You. You bring me nothing but joy!! And You are my refuge in time of need. yay.

Mathew7:1-2 Do not judge,or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

Eh seriously I feel nothing but love now. I wanna do something for God and I can cos I'm His child. ooo and this song rawks.


BANANA FONE
Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring
Banana phone
Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring
Banana phone

I've got this feeling
so appealing
for us to get together and sing - SING!

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring
Banana phone
Ding dong ding dong ding dong ding
Donana phone

It grows in bunches
I've got my hunches
Its the best
beats the rest
cellular modular
interactivodular

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring
Banana phone
Ping pong ping pong ping pong ping
Ponana phone

Its no baloney
It aint a phony
My cellular
Bananular phone

Don't need quarters
don't need dimes
to call a friend of mine
dont need computer or tv
to have a real good time
I'll call for pizza
I'll call my cat
I'll call the whitehouse, have a chat
I'll place a call around the world
Operator get me beijing jing jing jing



Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring
Banana phone
Ying yang ying yang ying yang ying
Yanana phone
It's a real live mama and papa phone
a brother and sister and a dogaphone
a grandpa phone and a grandma phone too - oh yeah
my cellular bananular phone

Banana phone
ring... ring... ring...
Its a phone with appeal (a peel)

Banana phone
ring... ring... ring...
Now you can have your phone and eat it too
Banana phone
ring... ring... ring...
This song drives me .... bananas
Banana phone
ring... ring... ring...

Bo ba do ba do do doob

What a day today was!! woke up and went to pig out.. Went over to bryan's place to play Winning Eleven and made loads of lame puns. Watched the Table Tennis Semi Final. Well Li Jia Wei lost. There goes our hope for a silver or a gold. =) Cheer up k? God is there for us most when it all seems so dark. Just trust Him.. trudge on and live your glorious life for Him. Sang this realy meaningful song in cell yesterday.Shall put the lyrics up. =)

In Christ Alone
In Christ alone.. my hope is found
He is my light my strength my song
This cornerstone this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm..

What heights of love what depts of peace
When fears are stilled when strivings cease
My comforter my all in all
Here in the love of Christ I stand..

In Christ alone.. who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe<--- hahaha weijun :p
This gift of love and righteousness
Scored by the ones He came to save
Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live..

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious day
Up from the grave He rose again!!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ..

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand!!

Yay.

Yay. God has been blessing me with gifts of late but my walk with him has been stagnanted. Just sorta feel that I need to spend more time with Him each day and not do things out of my own ability. Yay He's always here for me. I'm glad I have a saviour. One that I could count on. If not I might just crumble under everything. I will succeed and it's only by confidence of God. Yay I'm happy. =) Eh 4.4 go back Acs i play soccer on 31 aug leh please please please.

Thank God for every thing. His right hand and His faithful arm have worked salvation for Him. I actually know that I possess talents and good points now which is a huge improvement from last time when i thought i was utterly useless and a mistake for the world to learn from. I dunno. What I've experienced in life so far has been failure after failure, some of i utterly deserve, but i guess what God has blessed me with is a character which doesnt give up. i endure failures cos i'm so used to it and i just dun care and i try and try and try again until i get what i want or until i am satisfied. In studies, in games, in sports I can train to be the best if I absolutely love the thing even though i have no talent in it whatsover and I seem like a failure at first. But what bout love? Try and try and try again? I can and i might for the next 10 years but for the fact that it involves other people and i dun wan any one else to get hurt. God has also instilled a passion in me for the things which i enjoy doing. Pulling out of stuff has always been difficult for me. Something i feel very passionate about is football. Heh i love playing football it gets my mind of stuff it burns my fats and i run and run and run and run like i've never done b4 just because my mind is fixed on one thing. THE BALL. And the feeling of scoring a goal, or your team coming from behind to win. wow. the rush of emotions.. I absoultely adore it. Another thing i'm passionate about i guess is my friends. They are the next thing to football cos they were the ones who played football with me. I can never ever imagine myself disassociating myself with them or leavin them behind me and living a life of myself and fining more new people and then leaving them behind again. Maybe I've done that to some people in the past but i will not now especially not with them... I'll never forget and I miss all of you all the time.. I wanna be all of you till the time i grow old and die. I dunno. that's the amount of heart i put into every thing which i do, or even pple that i love. Is that a good thing? I guess i cant let go sometimes which is not a good thing cos i need to look forward and do things for God's glory. And it hurts pulling myself out of stuff. Ouch. I wanna experience the rush of passion again. Let me out loose on a football pitch please. Now you know why i like alan smith so much.

~ I can do whatever I want. No matter how much it hurts it's my choice and I'll make you happy ~

I was feeling bored in the mrt today.. and then i decided to call ah neh cos i din wan a repeat experience of what happened to me yesterday to happen again today. I slept in the mrt.. starting frm woodlands.. and den i woke up cos Janice msgged me and the fone vibrated in my hand. I woke up to find that I was at Yew Tee.. which i was quite surprised about cos I rem i had slept for quite long. Then the train announcer said " next stop, kranji. " i was like crap and den i had to go take the other train back to jurong east again. oops lah...

I called ah neh and he was like " EH I SAW QUAH (our 4.4 form teacher) TODAY." and i started laughing the 4.4 laugh and every one stared at me. oops. yar then i asked him what happened? and i think these are his exact words, well around there. " eh you noe today i saw quah.. me and chris.. then she was like coming out of the school i think she saw us but she pretended to jus be looking for a cab or sth. then i whispered to chrispy " Eh if michael was here he would have shouted quah juat mei lah. " then chris was like QUAH JUAT MEI!!! hahahahahahahah den she started walking towards us and chris was like oh shit let's go.. but by then it was too late. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH then i managed to convinced her that benja and michael got into RJC cos you noe last time they are in ncc rite. and like cos they have exceptional leaderhip skills.. so now dey are in rj.. and she believed lah and she said " I ALWAYS KNEW MICHAEL AND BENJAMIN HAD IT IN THEM. " er yar. the ones she thinks that they do not have lah considering the number of times she told them " boys.. you're officers.. is that the way u behave.. you are not fit to be officers.. blah blah blah.. " the stupid quah hypocrite. yar then chrispy was jus laughing like crazy lah. "

ahhahaha stupid quah. last time always curse us under her breath and scold us and all.. especially michael and benja. and now she sings a different tune cos they are supposedly in rj. what's dis man.. tsk tsk.

Got off the train and was walking on the overhead bridge when i heard a loud shout "HAWN!!" looked forward to see michael and josh in their sch uniform. :p and i was like " eh what are u all doing here? " josh smirked and replied " WE CAME HERE TO BORROW STUFF. WE FOUND A NEW LIBRARY. " muhahahahahahah. yay new library. yay i likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =)

I'm glad to have someone to turn to when I screw up. When I'm alone.. When it seems like no one cares. Thank God for all my friends. You speak through them and sometimes you speak to me too. You are so important to me. Yet You are the one holding on and never givng up on me. Woah. =)

Rescue Me (Planet Shakers)

When im alone the world is such a different place
Sometimes its hard to keep the smile upon my face
It seems like I try so hard and still I let you down
Its taken so long but now theres one thing that Ive found

Just when I think that Ive got it figured out
You open my eyes and let me see that theres no doubt
But you've got it all within the power of your hand
It seems like the more I know the less I understand

When all my strength has turned to fear
When I wonder if you're near
When I dont know how to break free
You're always there to rescue me

I wonder if Ill make it through this darkest night
I need to know your strength in me gonna win this fight
Im reaching out wont you take my hand show me to the light
I know you're by my side
It seems like I try so hard and still I let you down
Its taken so long but now theres one thing that Ive found

When everyting starts crashing down
When all I know falls to the ground
When darkness comes and I can't see
You're always there to rescue me
When all my strength has turned to fear
When I wonder if you're near
When I dont know how to break free
You're always there to rescue me

My Jesus. I know you are good.

The smiles on the fan's faces as i raced towards them.. finger pointing first to the sky seemingly acknowledging God's work in the goal I had scored. The screaming and shouting fans pumping all their emotion into celebrating the goal. This is the best part of my job. Seeing fans jump around in ecstacy, losing their heads and going crazy... I raise my hands.. sucking in their adoration as they chant my name.. done this many times but each one's special in it's own right. I do not play dirty football to win. I do not possess silky talents to allow me to glide past defenders with ease. But what I have is a heart of passion. A heart of grit and fight. I put in 100% commitment into the game. I cover every blade of grass on the pitch just to get the ball back. I dont fear any one or anything as I go in two footed for the ball. I put in every single ounce of emotion into football.. Tenacious, hot tempered or a downright hooligan you might call me but that's not going to change how i play. It's my heart that has got me to where I am today. I'll put in everything I have for the fans. For my team. I cant wait to win things for/with Manchester United. I'll spill blood for them.



~ Foootballlll i likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =) ~

Havent really sat down and think about stuff for a long time.


Fear resides in me. I'll probably never do anything like this again. I just wanted to know if you cared. I mean nothing to you. You probably wouldnt even cry if I would be called home by the Lord right now. And I wanted you to know that I care. A lot. But you pushed me away. I'm hurt. You run away from me like a plague. You fear me. Why? Don't you know that what you do cant stop me from caring and loving you any way? I desire nothing more than your happiness, your joy, your emotions... I want to be a part of your life. I want to make sure that your life is as good as I can try to make it to be. Childish and immature but I dont care.

Maybe I should stop caring. Stop so that she'll be happy. Make her comfortable around you again they say. I know i know i know. I've tried to for so many times but I cant just take it out and throw it away poof just like that. Everytime i fail. Just like all my tests. Just like in almost everything I do. Sorry.

I'll have to do it this time. I'll free you from me =)

~I cant dream anymore since you left. I miss you singing me to sleep~

Sometimes I feel that I just go to the Lord cause I'm so useless I cant do anything right. I dont love my God as much as I think I do. Or maybe it's not enough. It's time to do something for Him instead using His strength.

I'll stand up and do whatever He wants according to His will. I wont look back anymore. I'll look foward and win souls for Him. It's a battle and I'll be God's soldier.

Throw anything you want at me and I'll overcome it. Cause I've a God that loves me.

And I'll love Him back.

~ HL high calcium, high protein, low fat = great drink during reflection. Yummy. ~

wah! been really busy this week. tests and assignments and projects are piling up. Sigh what to do. Hopefully I can do well. Hmm. 4.4 are going back to ac to play soccer tmr but i cant. Crap. Stupid nyp cant even let us off on national day lah we have to go back on other days for make up lessons lah. what can I say man.

I cant stop looking back cos the future seems so bleak. what looked like something has now turned to dust. I look at myself and I'm ashamed. Who am I to actually demand anything? I haven done anything worthy and probably never will. I'm sorry I dont meet the standard. I dont want this but the more I reject it the worse it gets.

I miss acs. I miss the cafe. the fields. the pe. the lit and english. the walkin on the corridors. the knock it downs. the see teck hock. the staff office. agnes.. hahahahaha. the blurry glassy window at the library. miss walkin frm one place to another for class. miss walking ard in de big maze we call a school. miss the bond we shared. miss the pple. miss the astroturf where we play soccer. i miss the goalposts and what my class pple would say. hawn u miss the goal also :p i miss the parade ground. i miss the slopes where we run 2.4. i miss the boarding school. the pool. the admin office. the estate office. the cleaners of the canteen. i miss the fried prawn mee served only on monday. i miss de chin chow. the ice milo. the drinks stall auntie. i miss chattin wif teachers in de canteen. i miss not havin my badge. i miss being late for sch. i miss rao. i miss joseph wong. i miss quek ye lik. miss the chem lab. miss the walking up the stairs. miss the water cooler. i miss the broom in my class. i miss the sign which says 4.4 ezra. i miss crispy. i miss neubronner. i miss oh wei yong tiong. i miss fatty yong. i miss pimplet/tumour man. i miss shortman/hulk and colossous. i miss benja. i miss mao the jawing jaw jaw. i miss blye wif his tooth sticking out. i miss pple yelling ahhhhhhhhh nehhhhhhhhhhhh wif me. i miss our PAPER BALL FIGHTS. i miss nike 3 on 3 soccer in class. i miss suaning quah juat mei. i miss assembly,devotion standing there in the hot sun. i miss my school anthem. my acs forever =)

hmm. Many things to blog. maybe i should jus start with the day's events. woke up at 9 hahaah as i said church starts at 9. whoopsie. den was supposed to go for youth service which was at 11. Went back to sleep. and woke up at 11. EVEN LOUDER WHOOPS. aiyah what to do.

~i jus finished playing gunbound and i need to sleep so i shall complete this thing tmr if i have the time~ :p